“A Real Happiness…”

“Life fades when a person doesn’t suffer:
having everything, he is not aware of the fact
that he is blessed…
Only in trials he realizes what the REAL
happiness is…”

Rain… Muddy…Getting dark… A homeless person was standing next to a food store, gazing for about an hour at a diary sector. Yes, he hadn’t eaten since morning when he found a loaf of moldy bread in garbage. People are spoiled, throwing away the things which still present a great value for others…

An hour passed… No changes… He was too proud to beg, stupid habit from the life when he was significant, had a job, “true” friends and the family… Who could say back then that he will turn into homeless person, loose everything at once???

People were busy doing Christmas shopping, buying presents and arranging the meals for Christmas dinner. For them this homeless person was invisible, like a wall or a garbage can, standing on the way and irritating with disgusting smell and look. He didn’t belong to this society anymore, because people in there don’t accept losers…

He decided to go home and find something containing nutrition on the way. It is amazing how fast the degradation of a person can happen, when the only thought in a head is connected with FOOD… No, he wasn’t at this stage now (at least he wanted to believe in it…), he just wanted to live, and it is essential to eat to stay alive.

While walking on a busy street he saw a beautiful girl, a girl who is about the same age as his daughter is supposed to be… He can only guess that his daughter looks like this girl, because he hadn’t seen her for two years, when she moved to a better life with HIS wife, leaving unlucky guy behind…

A girl smiled to him, kids don’t really care how much money you have in the pocket… Later she will grow up and turn into a bitch, like all females who sell their beauty, bodies and lives… Do they become any happier having cars, apartments and respect? They think that this comfort is called “happiness”, but they are wrong… This homeless person can say that he is happy now, not possessing any property, nevertheless happy…He is grateful when he finds moldy bread, when someone finally notices him, or when he gets to talk to other people…

He also makes a wish on a Christmas Eve every year, because a hope always accompanies him, and while there is a hope there is a reason to strive and live, live to a better life. It is the same wish, from year to year… and he believes that if he really wants it to happen it will come true…

Some people would call it “childish dream”, but for him it had a certain meaning… He dreamed of having a puppy… a cute little puppy, unprotected and loving… And every time he would come “home” someone would wait for him there, will notice his absence… it won’t be necessary to talk, an animal doesn’t need words, it needs real YOU…

It is not that hard to find a puppy for homeless person, because there are millions of homeless puppies out in the streets… But taking a puppy requires a lot of responsibility, because you should make sure that you won’t hurt him, that he will have everything he needs, including shelter and food… We are responsible for creatures we have domesticated and who will not be able to survive without our presence in their lives anymore… He couldn’t offer these items now, but he had love – a feeling which is impossible to work out, you just have it or not…

Homeless person greeted Timur, his basement neighbor, who was also homeless. Timur was alcohol addictive. He was still young, nevertheless overloaded with problems which he was able to solve, but we always choose “easy solution”, so now he is here, accompanying our hero. Usually they don’t talk much to each other; both had enough of their own problems to pay attention to someone else’s.

This day Timur was unusually excited: he found an advertisement in newspaper where the vacancy for a storage guard was announced. Surprisingly, all the requirements talked in his favor, and the salary was promising. A real chance to start a new life. Timur was choosing the most “less dirty” outfit for the interview, found a piece of soap and had intentions to take a shower using water from the heating system.

But employers were mean: they didn’t let Timur take an interview, not realizing that this is his last chance… Returning to a basement, homeless person found Timur dead: he committed suicide using that soap... A bottle of vodka – the only reminder of a person’s existence, only a bottle… Later everything was like in fog: aggressive policemen, short interrogation and prohibitation to live in a basement.
Inexplicably, a homeless person still had a desire to live…

You never know the reason of us coming here…
Time will pass and suddenly you’ll disappear…
You fall in love, then heart is broken… so many words are left unspoken
We hurt the people we mostly care, not trying to be better, prefer to swear:
Smoke pot, try sex, ignore the Christ’s existence
And laughing in a class at kid’s persistence…
You never know what’s wrong or right… just ask yourself: you might…

Look around: there are many people who are less blessed than you are… And they don’t complain as much as you do that “life really sucks!” If you pay just a bit of your attention, you might even meet this homeless person who is still walking in search of his dream… and a puppy waiting for his loving owner… If you get to see this homeless person, please give him a smile: it won’t cost you much, but for him it might be a real happiness…